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Easter break
just came back from a week off.
it felt like a month.
i thought i was bored of vacation and wanted to get back to work. and i get back to work and realize it's not as exciting here either. I'm assuming that 'not travelling' on your days off is the culprit. I've installed vinyl tile in the kitchen and almost finished painting the kids' rooms. we went for a hike in Banff. Explored some eateries around where we live. brunch at a friends house for Easter, Easter egg hunt and then wedding on Saturday. Hung out at the arcade yesterday - which is like a kids version of a casino though right? My work turtle is begging for food. Too bad work turtle! we don't always get what we ask for!!
11:59 a.m. - Apr. 04, 2016
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the Angel Killer
i've been reading these fbi thriller books. i was surprised to really like the Jack Reacher series. It's really slick but not try hard. a book good is seamless. you don't really know how good it is, until you experience one right after and it's not done as well. Right after Jack Reacher, I started the Angel Killer - about an FBI agent that grew up as a magician. I expected to hate that one too but it held up quite well right away. It pulled me right in. It was unique and the main character had this vulnerable, insecure quality about her. But i'm at chapter 30something and her insecurity is starting to get annoying.
I guess this might be the tricky part about writing books about smart characters. It's difficult to keep up the smartness all the time. You have to keep it up. Have your main character never be blindsided by something your audience can see. because it shakes your character's credibility. I cannot do that shit. I admire writers that can keep up the continuity.
10:38 a.m. - Jun. 14, 2015
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The Killer Next Door: Alex Marwood
this book was surprisingly smart and not slick and graphic like the title sounds. about a serial killer and talented embalmer.
3:42 p.m. - Jun. 09, 2015
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i remember books on tape
I can't remember the last time i picked up a book. like physically picked one up. i don't have the time to sit and do one thing. I have replaced my one task item to dual tasking by listening to copious amounts of audo books while at work. or at home in the kitchen. ------------------- Just finished Broken Monsters. by Lauren Beukes, Christine Lakin. man this started out really good. the creepiness, the pacing. Then stuff started to get added. And in the end when it was all supposed to come together in the last chapters, the mixing was a little unsmooth. lumpy. the description 'fiery angel monster' was used. and i wasn't sure if i was supposed to laugh or not. There was a lot of good little stories packed into this book though. i think i prefer a more methodical way or finding a serial killer and details on serial killer mentality. or maybe just not methodical stuff mixed in with supernaturally/sureally components.
11:02 a.m. - Feb. 12, 2015
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grey hair, don't care
every once in a while i check in here - just to make sure Dland is still here. my old life is still here. like an old favourite book on a shelf.
which is why every entry sounds like i just walked in the room and am re-introducing myself.
We're still in the same city but we've moved closer and closer innercity. I love where we live now. I thought i just liked moving - but it turns out I just hadn't found a place where I was really content. We're in an apartment in the University area now. I love it here. I can stay home and but still be in the middle of things. Kind of like when I go into a bathroom while a party is going on. My peaceful place amidst the chaos. Anytime I feel like a shot of inspiration, it's just an elevator ride away.
Since last check-in, work is the same - or at least my work description is still the same. But i've become better at organizing my thoughts and keeping up with shit going on in my department. The ins and outs of software lifecylce workflow shenanigans and how small/tiny companies can shift and make changes willy nilly but still be responsible and grounded.
I do have moments where I think I want to make big changes to my life - but it's no longer coming from a desperate place. The world just fell off my radar once the babies were born. Ok I might have hovered a bit too much and became slightly neurotic but i've finally found a good balance. I don't feel the need to be constantly monitoring their activities now that they've grown and are less prone to injury - but I still prefer their company to anyone else. It's quite awesome. It's like I grew my own friends. Although I do feel the shifting. As they grow into their own little people. I'm re-discovering bits of myself that I hadn't looked at in a while. Bits I want to get re-aquainted with, bits I no longer need. All in all, good smooth flow. Except for this stupid money angst that has never really gone away.
We're making more money than ever before and yes, while we do have more financial responsibilities - it doesn't help that I have the common spending sense of a bag of hair. I need to work on this.
11:29 a.m. - Sept. 22, 2014
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40s
emotionally, I don't feel 40.
40 YEARS OLD.
wow.
at least i'm in the 'earlies' again.
4:19 p.m. - Jun. 11, 2014
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test
i must be getting old because i forgot how to work this. or archive stuff.
10:13 p.m. - May. 14, 2014
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what i've been up to
Amazon Best Sellers Rank:
#121,803 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store) #73 in Kindle Store > Kindle eBooks > Literature & Fiction > Erotica > Humorous
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I wrote a short story last month and published it on Amazon. Yes, it's total crap, but it's made me more motivated to write and hopefully the more I write, the more my work will become more palatable to read than shit farts.
8:02 p.m. - May. 13, 2014
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gift exchange
if friends are gifts you give yourself, then i need new gifts. or maybe just exchange one that i have.
8:21 a.m. - Jul. 11, 2013
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old job new job
i was offered a new position at my company. which i accepted. it's lateral. the person who just vacated the position tried to convince me otherwise.
'It's not a LATERAL move', she said - trying to dish out advice,
'it's just DIFFERENT'.
bullcrap.
understandably that there are other factors she may be considering
but the bottom line is:
the numbers on my cheque are NOT changing and the person i will
be answering to - isn't any higher on the ladder that i was answering to
before. Then she said, 'but my new job is looking to hire..'. (bait and switch).
It will still be a good transition.
I wasn't really looking, I just got asked by someone in that department.
They took me out for lunch and gave me the schpiel.
a day later, and many meetings with managers later (i wanted to
make sure they understood that i wanted specific things from
this new job) and i got the offer from the hiring manager. no interviews, no hoops,
just 'we'd love to have you!' and my old manager going 'Dirtbag!'.
...i left because my goals were not coinciding with my previous position's
career trajectory.
I'm fcken old in 3 days.
7:58 a.m. - Jun. 08, 2013
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toilet plunging noises
seriously, Michael needs to plunge the toilet quieter because it's freaking me out. i bet i have one of my awesome recurring toilet dreams.
11:32 p.m. - Feb. 25, 2013
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oscars
sunday brunch. then towers and trolls. then napping to the sound of babies arguing about their video game. then the Oscars on tv with cheetos puffs. now a nightcap and chilling with the husband.
10:28 p.m. - Feb. 24, 2013
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cake in the eye
hosted a 4 hour party at Playland for nine 6 year olds. there was a play structure,
laser tag, a climbing wall, and this cool hurricane tube. there was laughter,
tears, cake in the eye, ice-cream theft, and more tears.
so finally we get home and the babies are passed out and and Michael says 'can i leave to watch
a hockey game?' and I'm like 'hell yeah!'.
cut to an hour later. I have foregone my cleaning plan, ate 2 hot dogs, played my towers and trolls
game and failed miserably. and this Mandrake movie about a killer plant
on Netflix is horribly disappointing. why can't anyone make an entertaining horror movie.
why can't anyone cast anyone who can act in a horror movie? are the only people willing
try out for these, ones that are too ugly for porn?
i give up on the game and the movie and decide to take a nice hot shower - because as luck
would have it, i got my period yesterday and my first two days are horribly bleedy and crampy.
but karma wouldn't have it, because both my kids woke up at 10pm?! and they both had to poop.
yes, in the bathroom i was using to have a shower. so 10 minutes into my shower, I have to pull
the curtain aside to wipe my daughter's butt after she's done. And then my son goes and I'm gagging
because it reeks in there.
well at least i think my kids had a good day.
11:31 p.m. - Feb. 23, 2013
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i should know when he's joking by now
from: me
to: [email protected]
date: Mon, Feb 18, 2013 at 8:31 PM
subject: Burning man Dude, We are looking to go to burning man this year. Interested?
Sent from Samsung Mobile
------------------------------ to me: Hadn't really thought about, but I'll keep in mind. Do you have to bring some sort of arts and crafts?
9:48 p.m. - Feb. 19, 2013
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August 23, eleven pm
everybody has the plague. i cancelled the barbeque at our house tomorrow. entertainment for tonight is 'Kolchak: the night stalker' on Netflix, with the dog.
11:46 p.m. - Aug. 31, 2012
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schlubb
i hate either diaryland or my stupid laptop.
i wrote a whole rant and it one keystroke it all went away.
i'm visiting my parents for the weekend. we went to a house party yesterday
for one of my parents's younger sister's birthday. I drove with the kids.
we got to this tiny one story house in a nice location. from the outside
it was about half the size of mine. from the inside, less than that, no baseboards, no finishes,
small kitchen, unfinished basement. and it made my house look like a doublewide. (it's not hard
because we have crap furniture and kids that like to write on it - but still
our house has awesome bones).
i couldn't find anything in this person's tiny that was more expensive than
what we had in our house - but it was still night and day in terms of taste.
every piece was well thought out, everything had a purpose.
they really put thought into what they were supposed to 'splurge' on everything tied together
so nicely instead of spending a bunch of money on shit that looked half assed.
the lame thing was that i was the youngest person there with children
and the husband there who made the most money and the only one who looked
like she had just finished a shift at the hotdog stand at IKEA. it's gotta change this year, seriously. there has been a lot of outside changes
over the years, houses, babies, jobs, raises, but inside - woof - lamesauce.
i'm tired of looking like a hobo, and living in a Sears Catalogue and people saying
we can't do anything about it because we don't have the money.
style isn't about money. i realize it's my responsibility to follow through with my design choices.
i'm not really going to get anywhere otherwise.
11:58 a.m. - Mar. 19, 2012
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