mybestkungfu's Diaryland Diary

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maxed out

i hadn't felt quite like myself since giving birth.
truthfully i've been the reigning bitch master since my second trimester -
then it was like i fell into a fog in February.
i couldn't even find joy in my usual refuge of hate.
it may be a post partum depression of sorts.
i don't have the 'kill the baby feelings', but i have 'omg, he's-going-
to-have-permanent-psychological-damage-if-i-don't-do-X' issues.
more than my share of paranoia.

so i was watching this reality show yesterday - the premise is to showcase debt ridden, stressed out, financially retarded people. there was this couple who just had a baby
the husband was nondiscript and the wife was adamant on being a stay at home mom
- even though they couldn't afford it.
and the she was going on about how she was 'being there for her child'
and no one should be telling her how much time she can spend with her own kid yada blah.
but they were such crap with money they could barely put food on the table.
the last time i checked, 'being an awesome role model for shitty decision making'
didn't cure rickets.

she pissed me off so much i'm job hunting.

12:27 p.m. - Oct. 19, 2007

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