mybestkungfu's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- hiatus and today you said - maybe i need some time to myself. maybe i need a little space...maybe we should take a break. and maybe she's worried about what's going to happen now, maybe she's considering the possibility of you hooking up with that skinny, skanky girl who works at the cafe you always go to - the one who always happens to be brushing imaginary biscotti crumbs off her breasts whenever you're at the counter. But she also thinks - fuck you - i can find someone who won't give me as much bullshit. i give and i give and i give... and maybe you need to say that your love for her isn't going anywhere. it hasn't diminished. you loved her more than your vital organs yesterday - but today loving her more than your vital organs is just normal. You love her and it just is. but you're going to take time to pull away and collect yourself. because it's been a battle lately. and you feel like you're being pulled apart. but you're not giving up. you just need to do a little mental house cleaning. you're not even going to party. in fact as far as your concerned it's just a hiatus. you're going to catch up on some to do lists. read some books. hang out by yourself more. not even tell anyone what happened. not even take off your ring. it makes for a conspicuos looking tan line anyway. so maybe you should tell her how much you love her? but maybe she already knows you're not going anywhere. that you'll see each other in a month and it will be as sweet and lovely. and the fucking will be fantastic and nonstop. so maybe she's taking this time out too - to enjoy the things she hasn't had time for since you started wrapping your lives around each other. maybe she'll have a girls weekend away. enjoy herself without having to call your cell at 2 am to make sure you're at home. because that had been hard to live with. So grab the remote control, some cheetos, your rattiest boxers and sit back and start your 'how-many-days can-i-go-without-showering-before people-start-to-gag-in-my-presence' experiment. eat chocolates again! clip your toenails! 5:46 p.m. - Sept. 04, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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