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Qui tacet consentit

It is not the lies that we tell. It is the lies that we live.

We have been raised to believe that self-sacrifice is the highest virtue. That we should set aside our wants and needs to satisfy the expectations of others. To serve a physical manifestation of the abstract concept of a higher power or the greater good. The pharaoh, the king, the tribe, the family, the race, the country. However - whomever is preaching this - is more concerned about obedience than individual development.

We have been raised to play dead.

Suffering in silence is a sham. There is nothing praiseworthy about brainwashing a society into thinking that repression is an asset . There is nothing commendable about being emotionally paralyzed. Suffering cheats you out of self responsibility. You don�t have to go out and get a real job, pay your own bills, get a shiny new boyfriend, . You don�t have to stand up to your boss, your lover, your best friend, your mother. You don�t have to say �I want a promotion, I love deserve someone better, I�m tired of your demands, I want to be treated like an adult.�

You sit and react to the world around you. You suck it up like jello through a straw.

And you are shielded from condemnation. And you are relieved of expectation.

�Hey self, sorry I can�t help with the goals, dreams and self respect, I have my hands full suffering�. anytime you neglect to express your wishes for fear of wrath or ridicule. Anytime you stop yourself from succeeding because of comfort zone constraints - you�re perpetuating a lie. You�re lying to yourself. And the thing that sucks the most. Is that your self keeps track. and the more you let life run over you. The more the path gets worn. And one day you�ll wake up. And your lie will have become the truth.

11:17 p.m. - Jan. 26, 2004

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